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I haven't been on here for a while. After this post i will once again be off facebook. However i can still recieve messages. As most of you know in the last week I have been to ER a few times and been placed in the Intensive Care Unit (ICU) twice, at two different hospitals. I have been released and thankfully this time I'm doing much better. I'm going to take this time and try to give a little insight on my disease. I have type 1 diabetes also known as juvenile diabetes. I have had this disease for the last 19 years of my life. I have been sick most of life. Honestly it's hard for me to even remember what it was like when I wasn't sick. I am on an insulin pump. When I was a child, I caught a common virus, you know the sniffles. However my body did not respond in a common way. Type 1 diabetes is an autoimmune disease. When I caught this virus my immune system attacked the insulin producing cells in my pancreas and killed them. Insulin is something that you have to have to turn food into energy. Type 1 diabetes and type 2 diabetes are two completely different diseases. Most of time, I look, act, work, and function completely normal. This makes people perceive me as fine with no problems. I am known as a brittle diabetic with a high sensitivity to insulin. Which means that it takes very little (sometimes nothing) to make my blood sugar critically high. My sensitivity to insulin means that it takes very little insulin to make my blood sugar critically low. Because of this I wear an insulin pump where I can give myself as little as 1/20 of a unit of insulin and still get continuous coverage. Even if you eat nothing you still have to have insulin. I have high and low blood sugar every day. Every moment of every day, even when I'm sleeping, I'm fighting for my life. There is never a break, or a day off. Without enough insulin your body produces what is called ketones. Here is where things get tricky. Your body can't get rid of ketones without enough insulin. I have an extreme sensitivity to insulin. It takes approximately 1/10 of the amount insulin for me as it does other type 1 diabetics. So my body can't remove ketones without a continuous supply of insulin. This is why I wear an insulin pump. I can take less insulin but still get continuous supply. This keeps the Ketones out of my system. However sometimes only once every couple of years I have problems getting my pump supplies. When taking injections I can't take enough insulin without killing myself to get rid of ketones. Once my ketones get so high it causes what is known as diabetic ketoacidosis also known as ketosis or DKA. DKA is a diabetic coma. This is hard for ppl to grasp because I am still conscious, moving around talking, sick but not what you think of when you think coma. Ketosis turns my blood into acid and causes multiple organ failure. My heart, kidneys, and liver are affected the most. As my sugar rises it enters my blood cells and pushes all of the potassium out of them putting me at an extremely high risk of heart attack. DKA dehydrates me to the point that I lose the necessary fluids to function. The only way to recover from this is fluids and continuous insulin. Thursday I was admitted to Icu. As soon as my blood sugar was down to a normal level I was released about 8 hrs later. However I was still in critical condition. I didn't even know until I got up and tried to move around. I was taken to another hospital and placed in ICU once again but this time with an insulin drip and a sugar drip until the Ketones subsided. High blood sugar isn't the only issue. When your blood sugar drops below 40 your brain cells begin to die. You lose motor function and speach. I have a blood sugar below 40 every day. This is a real disease that effects not just me but all that are around me every day. It doesn't have any thing to do with what I eat, how often I eat it, how much I weigh, me not taking care of myself, or what your older family member did who had type 2 diabetes. It's not going away because I want it to or because you want it to. I will have to deal with this for every moment of the rest of my life. If I don't I will die. I know to most of you my diabetes seems out of control but truth is that it is actually very controlled, or at least as controlled as it can be. petite items to wear for maid of the brides